I don't feel like doing this anymore

[Paul Younan]

I will, Akhay, come back to this work. I need this little Sabbatical right now. Akhan John Marucci hit the nail on the head in his post.

Despite the tone in my post, I am not depressed...sad...overwhelmed or any of that. In fact, I couldn't be happier. I'm having a fantastic time in life right now, and I am blessed with a great family and great friends. My career is great, my business is booming.

The bottom line is that I've made excuses for a long time, whereas the reality is that I do have plenty of time to do this. I could do this. I just don't feel particularly inspired at the moment, nor have I for the last couple of years.

This text, this project, deserves the attention I once was inspired to give to it. I shouldn't attempt to continue unless I can give it that attention again, from deep within. It's not something that can be forced. It has to just happen.

Dean and I have spoken at length about this, and I've been meaning to call you too Akhi Keith.

At some point in time this went from being a personal hobby that I enjoyed immensely, to an obligation. I don't know exactly when or why that happened. But when it was a hobby, I enjoyed it. When it became a job, something that was expected, I began to despise it.

It has to turn into a hobby again in order for me to approach it with the right attitude. It's a heavy task, and again it deserves someone who is motivated. That's not me right now....but it will be if I start to look at this again with the right perspective.

Give me time.