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With the increase of knowledge, one's faults become more visible. I would be dishonorable as a man if I were unable to confess my misdeeds, beloved forum. Formerly known as bar Khela, I zealously (and recklessly) argued with various members here; I did so only to defend my beliefs. Because I closed myself away from the viewpoints of others, I gained nothing from their discourse. The prospect of someone changing my mind was too painful to bear. I put up swords instead of an extended hand of peace. Therefore, I want to apologize to everyone for my arrogance. Forgive me.

Hey Buddy, missed ya! I've often thought about you during the years, the lunch we had together in LA, the service at the CoE are you man?

All is forgiven of course, we are all human. Welcome back!
Shlama to you Akhi Kara (Bar Khela)!

I have missed you as well...great to hear from you. I pray you and yours are well. Welcome back!!!
Welcome back Kevin!
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Enjoy, friends!
Shlama Kara,

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" Follow thine heart during thy lifetime; do not more than is commanded thee. Diminish not the time of following the heart; it is abhorred of the soul, that its time--of ease--be taken away. Shorten not the daytime more than is needful to maintain thy house. When riches are gained, follow the heart; for riches are of no avail if one be weary..." (The Instruction of Ptah hotep)

Friends & Members of the Forum,

Let me share my discovery with you. If this is unappropriate, I ask the moderators to reject this post & I will apologize.

1) Misdirection of ambition has caused me immeasurable grief. For a long time, I only pursued knowledge as a means to gain status in the eyes of men. I dreamt of admission into the most exclusive elitist circles. I dreamt of fame & fortune. I dreamt of unanimous praise. I dreamt of being the man whom none could resist. In my dreams, I was dark, tall, & handsome whose knowledge & strength & charm was matchless. In short, I was uncomfortable being myself. And none of my desires gave me peace. Instead, the hole in my heart grew larger with an insatiable thirst for that which I dreamt. Unable to create a reality akin to my dreams, I lived in a personal hell.

"For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?"

Quite recently, I had an ephiphany. I ignored my own heart's cry, saying "seek thou of that which is in thy nature." It is, as it always has been, in my nature to dedicate my mind, heart & soul entirely to God's will--all else is chasing of the wind:

"As honey drips from the honeycomb of bees, and milk flows from the woman who loves her children, so also is my hope upon You, O my God" (Odes of Solomon).

I am ever-aware of the evasive presence of death. It reminds me that each day undedicated to the will of God is not only wasted & lost, but will be a weight of grief on that Day. Although my heart desires Paradise, it desires His favor more. It desires to worship Him not just for eternal pleasure, but because He created me and gave me a heart that can only love Him fully.

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Enjoy, friends!

Beautiful voice.

Thank you Kevin. Hope I have not been too harsh to you in the past.